on the you.

You know the very thing at your core that affects your center of gravity in a second's notice? The one that drives you down and moves you forward - that pulls you back and sends you to the clouds? That's what I want to know about you.

This season continues to move me to words. The confession? My yearning for stability and settling is strong. My strengths seem to lie in everything I envisioned for my future-family-self. The truth? Jesus leads elsewhere; He reminds me of Paul's words in 2 Corinthians 12:9 and smiles. Through that smile I hear Him telling me to be courageous and brave in that weakness; because I AM.

Instead, the day to day is nothing but dynamic situations. He has created me to feel deep; He asks me to love hard. More then anything, He brings me beautiful people and all the joyfilled tough stuff that comes with them. In turn I sit with some awesome emotions.

I've learned that He knows my emotions - sees them and has lived them - but asks for boldness beyond them. He lays out reason and has given me truth to stand in instead.

I like that. There is a time for emotions and there is a time for trusting what is unfolding - rooting it deep in truth. This has made me a better version of myself.

I can't generalize these thoughts into take-away or bullet point steps for "How to Be Your Best You."

But I do know it all starts with knowing Jesus.

And often it continues with fellowship, community, and depth in relationships. People who see your raw emotions, recognize them, but know when to tell you to focus on the reasoning and seek the truth.

If you sit with people just like you, you see the same small image of God that you always see. If you put a diverse group of believers together, you often draw closer to the whole picture of God.

It's my daily pursuit to love the woman God has created in & through me - to humbly lay it down at the feet of Jesus. The Lord purposefully molds my small little piece to be shared with the whole.

What I rest in this evening is that with eyes fixed on Jesus, my yesterday does not define who I can be right in this moment.  What I challenge myself for tomorrow is to be moved to my core by the gospel so that I meet others with the same eyes that Jesus has for me. 

*Speaking of weakness: I'm finally trying Pure Barre tonight - I'm stoked. The last time I stepped foot in a dance studio was in kindergarten; they had to order me a "special sized costume..." I hope my awesome flexibility doesn't knock other people over :)