Gradually,
I will get older
I will get wiser
I will move slower
I will see clearer
I'll over come
I will acknowledge
How far I have come.
[rosie thomas]
Is it comfort talking?
Friday I stumbled, again. Irrational thoughts and leaky words. An unstable heart and feet that shake. A heart that doubts and a soul that wanders. It's a battle worth fighting, a team worth recruiting, and a faith worth protecting.
I think I am ready for this phase. I trust that I am, I have no idea what is about to unfold. I wait and I reflect. I take baby steps. I work on self control. I know that God's plan is bigger then mine, that this is a time of discomfort and questions - but that doesn't help the incredible feeling that I am supposed to stay. Is that just comfort talking?
Surrounded by encouraging couch conversations and a simply amazing couple for Christ. Beautiful two year old smiles and questions. A little lady crawling and exploring. A community that could use what I have to offer. Extended friends and family who I didn't know until this year. A social life that means way more then it used to but looks less then ever before. A heart that has been changed. A heart that needs accountability. I want to keep learning, meeting, and loving.
This year was not what I expected. Social ties cut, new paths paved, a heart taking risks and battling wounds, a desire to do something bigger then what I had planned.
How do I get there? Where do I start? Is there an opportunity waiting for me, will someone extend the "I believe in you" card and take a risk? Will I be teaching or doing something completely different? Will it be another internship? Will it be a part-time job? Will I be Queen of Genovia?
Or will I find a job, have insurance, and wake up every day for school, and live the comfort of a life I've always "dreamed" of? That sounds comfortable, right?
I want to contribute, plan, travel, organize, motivate, meet, love, share, dream, and vision. I want to plant seeds, raise support, build a community, fight for a cause, and see it all come together.
Let me know if you find a job description that fits.
I think I am ready for this phase. I trust that I am, I have no idea what is about to unfold. I wait and I reflect. I take baby steps. I work on self control. I know that God's plan is bigger then mine, that this is a time of discomfort and questions - but that doesn't help the incredible feeling that I am supposed to stay. Is that just comfort talking?
Surrounded by encouraging couch conversations and a simply amazing couple for Christ. Beautiful two year old smiles and questions. A little lady crawling and exploring. A community that could use what I have to offer. Extended friends and family who I didn't know until this year. A social life that means way more then it used to but looks less then ever before. A heart that has been changed. A heart that needs accountability. I want to keep learning, meeting, and loving.
This year was not what I expected. Social ties cut, new paths paved, a heart taking risks and battling wounds, a desire to do something bigger then what I had planned.
How do I get there? Where do I start? Is there an opportunity waiting for me, will someone extend the "I believe in you" card and take a risk? Will I be teaching or doing something completely different? Will it be another internship? Will it be a part-time job? Will I be Queen of Genovia?
Or will I find a job, have insurance, and wake up every day for school, and live the comfort of a life I've always "dreamed" of? That sounds comfortable, right?
I want to contribute, plan, travel, organize, motivate, meet, love, share, dream, and vision. I want to plant seeds, raise support, build a community, fight for a cause, and see it all come together.
Let me know if you find a job description that fits.
blue suede shoes
Can't get this song out of my head. The piano, the lyrics, the soul searching feel - so fantastic.
winner, winner CHICKEN DINNER!
WINNER WINNER CHICKEN DINNER!
I won the 2nd Annual Wojcik family March Madness Bracket!
NoDoughBRO CHAMPION
No Money, Bragging Rights Only.
Had the tourney champion picked.
Score of 121.
38 Correct Picks.
Next person (my mom) was at a score of 83.
Consider this my bragging. Plus whatever I'll pull out in Arizona :)
I love that my family is so competitive, but I do wish I would gain possession of the OSU/MSU dollar bill - Dad's been hanging onto that one for a bit too long.
Thanks to CBSsports.com for organizing our long distance rivalry. You make it so much easier for us to compete :)
I won the 2nd Annual Wojcik family March Madness Bracket!
NoDoughBRO CHAMPION
No Money, Bragging Rights Only.
Had the tourney champion picked.
Score of 121.
38 Correct Picks.
Next person (my mom) was at a score of 83.
Consider this my bragging. Plus whatever I'll pull out in Arizona :)
I love that my family is so competitive, but I do wish I would gain possession of the OSU/MSU dollar bill - Dad's been hanging onto that one for a bit too long.
Thanks to CBSsports.com for organizing our long distance rivalry. You make it so much easier for us to compete :)
this one's for real.
Never put a comma where God puts a period
AND
Never put a period where God puts a comma
It's not over until God says it's over.
As Jesus was walking beside the Sea of Galilee, he saw two brothers, Simon called Peter and his brother Andrew. They were casting a net into the lake, for they were fishermen. "Come, follow me," Jesus said, "and I will make you fishers of men." At once they left their nets and followed him. Going on from there, he saw two other brothers, James son of Zebedee and his brother John. They were in a boat with their father Zebedee, preparing their nets. Jesus called them, and immediately they left the boat and their father and followed him.
[Matthew 4:18-22]
East Lansing feels like an end.
As much as it can get me down to think about leaving my Spartan city, I faithfully wait for the moment Jesus says, "Come follow me."
I pray that I can leave at once, drop my nets, and follow Him.
No strings attached. A leap, a gallop, a skip towards the next phase - and immediately know that the God of the whole universe is protecting me.
The will of God will never take me where the grace of God won't protect me.
You all know well, that my ability to embrace change is not usually met with an optimistic spirit. Prayers are welcomed. My heart keeps referring to "It's Not About Me" by Max Lucado and "Through Painted Desserts" by Donald Miller as great examples of stories and people who have dropped everything and gone.
Prepare my heart Lord.
Even if dropping everything means staying put. :) Oh mixed signals.
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