my heart.

just a few BEAUTIFUL girls I could never live without.
they remind me that God is steadfast and perfect.

"Battery exhausted? Does that mean we have to go home?"
-madison marshall-

pray for me.

I can't do it on my own. Please help :]

Wednesday Festivities.
7-8:15 Donuts before the Middle School Starts
10-12:30 Classes
1:25 - 2:45 Student Teaching
2:45-6 With our 8th grade girls at Starbucks!!!!
8-9 p.m. Group Meeting

Biomechanics Exam on Thursday....and I am currently failing the class. Need I say more?

moisturization (edited).

I don't like anything about lotion.

It makes my pants stick to my legs. It sweats out of my pores when I run. It feels slimy in the pool. It is cold to apply in the winter and makes sand stick to you in the summer.

Lotion grosses me out.

However, the process of moisturizing my skin is important to me. It adds nutrients to my skin and quenches the thirst of my skin cells. Using lotion also means I am preventing my skin from getting scales like an alligator or cracks like an old 1940's linoleum floor. It is also important because I know it keeps my skin healthy and "moist" which ultimately means WRINKLE FREE! :] haha. yeah right.

Anywho. I think this can apply to alot of areas of my life. Things I know I should do/use because they will benefit me in the long run but still make me feel uncomfortable for the time being.

Not only does lotion protect us from the sun, keep me shiny smooth like a waxed car, and prevent me from attracting other reptiles.....I guess lotion makes me step out of my comfort zone. Who knew?

an extra morning.

I set my alarm last night for 8:00 a.m. this morning.
Subconsciously I knew I wouldn't wake up until 8:30.
I also knew that I would probably be skipping tumbling but making it in time for swimming class (11:30 a.m.).

Funny how you make these plans in your head but your heart is just not into it :] I ended up enjoying a fall morning to myself. I took an extra morning. Did a little devo time with a warm bowl of oatmeal, threw in a load of wash, went for a fall jog/walk, made a cup of coffee (yes...I officially like coffee), scrubbed up and just sat down to discuss my thoughts of this fall morning.

Just like my friend (and almost birthday girl!) Katie Burley, fall is by far my favorite time of year. The sweatshirts snuggles, hot beverage tickles in my throat, the crisp fall air in my lungs on a run, the COLORS, the reminder of where I started some of my best friendships, and the beginnings of holiday festivities. It's magical.

I just wanted to check up on my blogging readers. Remind you to find something great about today. God's spirit is the wind and his passion for us is in those colors outside. Try to take an extra morning this week to take it all in...I promise you it will be worth missing how to do back handsprings and learning the backstroke.

that feel good feeling.

I've got that feel good feeling....know what I'm talking about?

It's that flutter in the bottom of your stomach, have a new crush, watched a really great movie, even though everything seems out of place you still know that no matter what everything is going to be okay kind of feeling.

It's that stand up for what's right, choosing to turn on confidence, smile because you are alive, and living like there is going to be no tomorrow kind of feeling.

It's that nine hours of sleep beauty glow, happy endorphins, day dream all day, can't wait for the future while still embracing the past kind of feeling.

It's that feel good feeling.

just great.

My greatest strength is also my greatest weakness.

I've know this to be true for pretty much my whole life.... but today it became crystal clear to me for the thousandth time in my life (thanks to Noel' message).

I've pretty much always been a softy - a tender hearted and caring girl who sees the good in most situations. I unconsciously smile all the time and just seem to have this ongoing source of encouragement for other people in my life. That has been me since I can remember and (in response to Katie's blog) That is what the sign would say if people wanted to know me before they met me, and these qualities are what I know others would say are my strengths.

The twist is that this type B personality is one that weighs me down and defines the weakness in my life.

In the process of being this picture perfect person that everyone loves, there have been so many times in my life where my personal validation ha relied on what people think of me. My money, time, resources, and stressful time in my life has been spent maintaining the Lauren Wojcik image that I feel held too.

I can encourage just about anyone in the world. I can find the best qualities of the worst person. I can see joy in the hardest situations for my friends. But I can't do this when it comes to my heart and my life.

My greatest strength is also my greatest weakness.

This is the reason for my struggle with relationships, my weight, and my in ability to take leaps of faith. My strengths are the shiny clean outside of a dirty and unscrubbed pot.

The first step in cleaning out the inside of my pot? Taking another grip with my tired hands. Digging into something I feel like I've been digging into my whole life. This is my struggle and will continue to be my struggle my whole life. My pride comes from the picture perfect Lauren Wojcik image and the clean outside of a shiny pot. My humbleness comes from honesty with people in my life to hold me accountable to seeking Jesus's perfection in my heart.

What do you know... I'm going to find ways to enjoy this struggle :]